Mood: Tired, but happy <enter adjective>

Currently listening to: U.S. of Tara

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Yesterday should go down in the history books, like Columbus discovering the Indies. Why you ask? I broke up with MySpace. It was easy and liberating. I opened that account five years ago, and became very addicted to it. MySpace was my drug and I don’t miss it. I think people were surprise I deleted it, but I was tired of the drama. “You picked your favorite.” Well it wasn’t necessarily my drama, I was just sick of hearing about it. It’s like, “don’t you have anything else to say about your life?” In my opinion, I think MySpace is more popular with the high school crowds and people who think like they are still in high school. Before you yell the B-word at me, let me explain. If most of your status updates include haters, copiers, and well you get the idea. It got to the point of where  I almost commented, “alright we get it.” But the thing is, I like this person, I have known this person for years, and grateful they have their life together for the sake of something important. It just got old after a while. So bye-bye MySpace. I have a sudden feeling of belting out N Sync, but I won’t. I’ll just do sing in my head.

Current listen: Monsters Inc

hmm, I am craving cereal. I have been craving cereal, but the sugary kiddie cereal so I bought “Captain Crunch with Berries” otherwise known as “Crunch Berries” and yum its delicious. I am contemplating getting a small bowl of it. No more contemplating, I got one and I don’t regret it.

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Ok here’s what happened, my internet crashed last night when I was writing this. And most of what I had written didn’t save and sadly I don’t remember what it was. It was probably intelligent, but on second thought if I was talking about breakfast cereal it most likely wasn’t.

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Having a conversation about music can be highly disappointing, especially if the conversation isn’t necessarily in your favor. Something I will never understand is if you absolutely love a band, a song, a decade, a person, a movie, a television show, or whatever else in the universe and then one person says, “I don’t like it”. It’s like “really?”. People have their own taste, and I get that,  sometimes it’s the same, sometimes it’s not but when it’s not, it breaks my heart a little, if a million pieces is a little.

Date: April May 3, 2010

mood: Fantabulous

Current listen: The Big Bang Theory

Today is monday right? Apparently so. I hate Mondays and Thursdays. I like whateverdayIamoffday. That day is pleasant. Yeah I have no topic in mind so now I am just babbling. I am very good at the babbling. And the babbling has stopped.

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The next three section in bold, were topics given to me.

GoA

That actually stands for something. If you don’t know what it means oh well, you are not part of the club. Yes it’s a club.  It’s a secret society. I’m sorry, I know you wish you knew what I was talking about, but unless you are one of the ones who know exactly what I am talking about then you are fully in the know. I would love to put you into the know that would just be wrong and our cover will be blown. And a hero never reveals their secrets or is that a magician? Well you get the idea…I think.

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Cupcakes

I love cupcakes. They’re freaking delicious. They’re sweet as, well cupcakes. I wonder who invented the cupcake? Did they get the idea like Romy and Michelle got the idea about how they “invented” post-its? “I don’t want a square cake I want you know a circle shape but small, and in any flavor”. My favorite kind of cupcake is red velvet. Well I guess that’s unfair to all the other cupcakes, because red velvet is my favorite kind of cake. Now I want a red velvet cupcake. My secret in cake making is instead of using the oil and such, use applesauce. You will get the moisest yummylious cake ever. If you make me red velvet cupcakes I will love you forever, or french toast if you prefer. I was just distracted by the idea of french toast. You know my birthday is coming up. Just thought I would put that out there.

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Panty-Dropping-Grins

This is what I get for asking for blog topics, haha. I would just like to take a moment to thank the person who suggested this topic…Thank you. I don’t even know where to begin or even end. Usually I can talk about anything. But talking about the unmentionables, let the red blushing faces begin. What would a panty-dropping-grin look like? Well I guess it depends on the situation. Laughing in any of the situations that comes to mind would be wrong. This is taking me forever, to blog about. It has been at least ten minutes. I would suck at improv, Jackson how do you do it at every show?  This would be a great improv suggestion though. Then after that is done, maybe I’ll steal the words or something. And then this would be entertaining.

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I still need more than one hundred words to make it to one thousand. Looking through the membrane to find a topic. I really want to see Letters to Juliet. I know it’s a chick flick, but I want to see it. Who wants to take me? Or who wants to go see it with me? I am completely serious. I know it’s hard to tell when I am being sarcastic, but this is not one of those times. I would never joke about a cinematic adventure. I would actually, yes I lied. If it was another “Epic Movie” and all those other Academy Award “winners”. Those movies are just ridiculous. Seriously, it wasn’t funny anymore after Scary Movie.

So we made it. Yay!!

Song of the Blog

“Thunderdome” by The Stevedores

Video from The Spencer Bell Legacy show

Thanks for reading,

J

Number 1. “Heaven” by Bryan Adams

Number 2. “Irvine” by Kelly Clarkson

Number 3. “Reaper” by 100 Monkeys

Number 4. “Seven Nation Army” by The White Striped

Number 5. “Creep” by Radiohead

Number 6. “Cryin” by Aerosmith

Number 7. “Polly” by Nirvana

Number 8. “Hotel California” by Eagles

Number 9. “Emma” by Imagine Dragons

Number 10. “Over the Rainbow” by Judy Garland

If you were just curious who else was included on this list here you go, in no particular order:

“Sweet Child O’ Mine” by Guns N’ Roses

“Baba O’ Riley” (Teenage Wasteland) by The Who

“Mary Jane’s Last Dance” by Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers

“Wheel in the Sky” by Journey

“Bohemian Rhapsody” by Queen

“Criminal” by Fiona Apple

“Everytime” by Britney Spears

“Man on the Moon” by R.E.M.

“Wild Horses” by The Sundays (Rolling Stones cover)

“A Song to Sing” by Hanson

“Beautiful, More So” by Spencer Bell

“The Current State of Our Future” by Chasing Kings

“Time is Running Out” by Muse

“Every Me Every You” by Placebo

“Fearful” by The Stevedores

“Bullet With Butterfly Wings” by Smashing Pumpkins

“The Man Comes Around” by Johnny Cash

“Darling You’re Mean” by The Duke Spirit

“Banana Pancakes” by Jack Johnson

“The Gift” by Seether

“Sex and Candy” by Marcy Playground

“Money” by Pink Floyd

“Everything” by Lifehouse

“You Shook Me All Night Long” AC/DC

“Breath” by Faith Hill

“California Waiting’” by Kings of Leon

“Jump” by Van Halen

“Sexyback” by Justin Timberlake

There you have it, some of my favorites and it’s not even all of them.

Here are some more that just knocked into my brain:

“Living in Twilight” by The Weepies

“Only Hope” by Switchfoot (I love Mandy Moore’s version too)

“I Will Follow You Into the Dark” by Deathcab for Cutie

“Under the Anchor” by Links

“1985″ by Crash Kings

“Time of the Season” by Ben Taylor Band

“Bittersweet Symphony” by The Verve

“Your Touch” by The Black Keys

“Waltz Across Texas” by Ernest Tubb

“Bad Romance” by Lady Gaga

“Billie Jean” by Michael Jackson

“What A Wonderful World” by Louis Armstrong

“Crimson and Clover” by Tommy James and the Shondells (and Joan Jett)

ok that’s enough for now, I think you get the idea.

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The song “Irvine” by Ms. Clarkson is something personal to me because I totally relate to the song. I am not a very religious person. I wish I did have a closer relationship with God. But I do believe in him as he does make miracles happen.

Can you feel how cold I am?
Do you cry as I do?
Are you lonely up there all by yourself?
Like I have felt all my life
The only one to save mine

This next verse:

How are you so strong?
What’s it like to feel so free?
Your heart is really something
Your love, a complete mystery to me

I had a very hard time in high school. Out side of school work and “preparing” for your future, your friends are everything. The events surrounding my freshman year of what set me on the path of loneliness and a bit of depression that changed me. I held everything in, and never really talking about it. Well at least with anyone professional. I still don’t know the reasoning of why, and that will ALWAYS bother me. I just want to let that particular person know this:

Do you know how long it took me to trust people again? I lost trust in people because of you. Because of you I hold a resentment. Because of you, I hated the rest of my freshman year. Because of you I lost friends who I loved and knew more than half my life. (They’re back in my life again and I am very thankful for that) This is what you wrote in my yearbook the year we graduated:

“Jessica hey we’ve been through some hard times but were (something ineligible) to be friends again in the end. Thanks and good luck”

But did we really? No. It’s been eight years, eight, and the reason being is still bothering because the suppose “reason” you told me why was a complete and total lie, and you know it. It’s fine that you didn’t “want” to be friends with me anymore, but I just wish you told me the truth. I don’t consider you an enemy. I can’t. I can’t even hate you. I hate what you did.

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And that same feeling I had for a year and a half came back toward my senior year, but for different reasons. And I talked about it with one of the two friends. I just don’t get to see/talk to her as much as I would like to.

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“I’d rather have a few close friends than….” and I do. It’s weird, that one of them I haven’t physically met yet, but she’s one of my closest friends. In the past few months I have met some incredibly amazing people, and I just want to know one thing, where have you been my whole life? I really do love you guys, and I want to thank you for coming into my life. You bring out the best of me, and I am starting to see my old self again. I missed her. And I am starting to cry, but it’s ok sometimes you need a good cry.

Actually since I left California, I met people who took me under their wings, and they made me smile. The way I used to. And I am very thankful for that.

True friends are not opportunists. They don’t help, because they have something to gain out of it. True friendship is marked by selflessness. Best friends support even each other, even if the whole world opposes them. It is not easy getting true friends for the lifetime. If you have even one true friend, consider yourself blessed. Remember, all best friends are friends, but not all friends can be best friends. In this world of cynics and back stabbers, there are still some people who are worth being friends with. They have to be recognized and respected for being best friends, for the lifetime.

This blog went in a complete and total different direction then I meant to. But I think I need to talk about that part of my life just to get out there. Maybe that’s why I am so awkward, or maybe it’s not.

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I think I need to talk about something completely random. But what?

Last night I saw the amazingly incredible Imagine Dragons. They opened for Sponge and Marcy Playground. The “local” band was the better out of the three. And let me just say this, the Hard Rock Cafe sound is still horrible. The sound guys, and including the name caller, don’t know how to do their job. Like the sound for MP was so loud that I got a migraine. It’s like “I am standing right here, you don’t have yell”. And I still haven’t heard “Sex and Candy” because we left early. I’ll just YouTube it. Maybe. Thank you Imagine Dragons for putting on an incredible show.

Song of the Blog

“Irvine” by Kelly Clarkson

Thank you for reading,

<3 J

What to write? What to write? hmm the possibilities and nothing comes close to mind.

I wonder what it would be like to go as mad as a hatter? <– should I put that into quotation marks? I don’t want people to think I stole it or anything, it just popped into my head.

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I wish I had a better vocabulary. I wish my fingers would type what my mind is actually thinking. Word for word. And it doesn’t always happen that way. It kind of sucks. Like my vocabulary. Did anyone ever had to copy definitions from the dictionary in elementary school? It didn’t help much. I mean all it did was teach how to look up words in the dictionary…which I am still using to this day. Well at least I still use something from third grade unlike cursive. Well that’s actually not true, I use cursive to write on cakes. But that’s about it. I remember my third grade teacher always told the class “You need to learn how to use cursive because you will be using it for the rest of your adult life.” Well guess what this isn’t the decades before today anymore. I use print writing in my everyday life.  The only teacher I can remember forcing students to utilize cursive was my U.S. History teacher my junior year of high school. I liked him.

I swear my fingers are dyslexic. Well my own version of what dyslexia is. I keep thinking “life” and my fingers type “like”. Maybe I should just blame my keyboard, and not the typer. I need an “easy” button. But then that would make life easier; maybe a little too easy. I like some complications, but not a whole lot. A life with some complications and very little drama.

Eleanor Roosevelt said, “Great minds discuss ideas. Average minds discuss events. Small minds discuss people”. Hollywood seems a little small-minded to me. I always thought this, with “this starlet gained ten pounds” or so and so’s body before they lost the ten pounds. And honestly they looked beautiful with the extra ten pounds. They looked healthy. I know some people are naturally thin, and I totally understand and comprehend that. But when it is constantly shoved down the everyday peoples throats it gets brainwashed into our minds that in order to be beautiful we have to be a size negative zero. But where does your happiness go? I can’t believe where I am going with this and who I am about to mention here because I believe the attention she and her husband receives is a complete waste of time so to be fair to me I won’t mention her by name although I think it will be obvious. The star of the now ,thankfully, cancelled crappy “reality” tv show recently underwent major plastic surgery. She said she was doing this “for herself”. But her husband is a major douche bag (that’s me being nice), I think she did it more for the db. Isn’t funny that “douche bag” and “dead beat” have the same initials? I thought she was beautiful before him,  before she began dating him. Now she looks like a crack whore. I heard on one of those television specials where they count down “The best/worst of “, and one of the interviewees said along the lines “plastic surgery is supposed to make you look better, make you feel better about yourself”. But does it really? It makes you seen like you want to look like a Barbie doll. And Barbie was a plastic broad who couldn’t seem to keep a job, and doesn’t have the “dream house” life with Ken anymore.  “What don’t you like about yourself?” was the main punchline on the television show Nip/Tuck which was one of my favorite shows. But isn’t the little imperfections that we were born with makes us beautiful?

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It’s been almost ten days since I started this post. I hasn’t been that I have been neglecting it, it just I was either too tired to finish it. But here I am, tackling this, hopefully until I publish this baby.

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Here it goes, just for you Crys

SEX AND CANDY

yes it is a song. A song I have loved since I was ten. I probably shouldn’t admit that, or at least to the band. I blame VH1 and Mtv. When Vh1 and Mtv still played more music videos and less reality shows. But what I remember about the video is a spider which I am terrified of, that and clowns…and dolls that are named Chucky. But let’s not go there.

“Sex and Candy” was hugely popular in 1997. Since then I have only wondered what would a combination of the two smell like. What kind of candy? Would it be a hard candy (no gutter of awesomeness minds please, “Lets not get obscene” – Jackson Rathbone)? Or would it be a chocolately candy? And who would think oh wow it smells like sex and candy in here wow! Ok why would a ten-year old wonder how sex smells like? Oh lordie. That’s not what I meant. So lets not go there as this is turning into crap, and possibly illegal.

Odd facts of 1997: I wasn’t allowed to listen to the Spice Girls,  My sister was highly obsessed with Hanson, and Titanic was released (which I saw 3 times = 12 hours of Leonardo DiCaprio)

Why is something as innocently as enjoying a lollipop candy deemed as something sexual. I mean unless you are going to town like Samantha Jones (Sex and the City) then {chuckle} no comment. But if  you are just having a lollipop, I don’t get it. Is there an age limit for when you can stop enjoying a lollipop? A while back I was listening to my favorite radio morning show “Mark and Mercedes in the Morning” and Mercedes was telling a story that involved a woman friend of her was eating a big stick frozen popsicle like Samantha. And their producer made a statement “I think when a woman is having a sucker or popsicle she is teasing us men” or something along those lines. I’m sorry, but that is completely false. Now, if this woman is making some well noises then I can see it as a tease.

I am going to see Marcy Playground, Sponge, and Imagine Dragons this Thursday at the venue I shouldn’t name because I am still pissed at for the treatment of a certain band. (If you don’t know what I am talking about then read previous blog entry

100 Monkeys at the Hard Rock Cafe

If you do know what I am talking about then please don’t think of me as a hypocrite, as I am still, highly a Monkey Junky, but I am also supporting Imagine Dragons. Just to spite the venue I should wear my 100 Monkeys shirt.) I am still highly irked about that night. And I shall not spend a dime there, as the event is free. I hope the H2O is free, as I might get thirsty. One of the reasons I want to go back to that place is to look at the artifacts there. And take pictures because they do have interesting stuff there.

Like this —–>

Britney wore this!!

* I was highly excited when I walked past this display. This is the closest I have ever come across something Britney touch*

*These people are awesome, and I just don’t mean Imagine Dragons (iD).*

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“We are all prisoners here of our own device”

Now I am drawing a HUGE blank…yep.

This past Sunday, some customers apparently took a high dosage of stupidity. I think if someone asks a stupid question, you should be allowed to smack them onside their head. Here is one story:

I work in the bakery department of a grocery store. And a male customer asked my fellow co-worker if we had any more of a certain type of roll, she pointed him in the right direction to where they were located. Not five seconds later he came back over to the counter and held up the roll, bagless, and said, “I was hoping it would be bigger”. (That’s what she said!) And she replied, “that’s as big as they come.” Meanwhile, me and my other co-worker were looking at each other strangely because he walked away towards the front of the store still bagless. He came back, time number three, and asked if there was in fact a code, and the same co-worker asked if he wanted a bag for it. After he walked away, I told my co-worker, “when he commented on the size of it, you should have said, “that’s what she said”. But the winner of the stupidest question of that day goes to the lady who asked if the hot french bread was from that day!

When people act/say something idiotic I want to do this:

but I have to do this:

“There is no such thing as a stupid question” Whom ever said that, obviously never worked retail.

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3 Three Things I am in love with:

1. 100 Monkeys Swimsuit Calender

It’s hilarity at its best. I love these guys, not just because of their music but of their sense of humor and style. If you were of the smart ones and order this calendar you should consider yourself…smart.

2. LINKS, it’s a band not one of the things you click on. They are really awesome. www.linksband.com Favorite songs, “Testify” and “Under the Anchor”

3. Rosemary & Olive Oil Bread….so effing delicious and completely dangerous.

Song of the Day: One of my all-time favorite songs “Bittersweet Symphony” by The Verve

That is all for now,

Thanks for reading,

<3, J

Jessicaism- Anything that Jessica says or does that cannot be explained reasonably.

The best part about it is I didn’t submit this to them, I stumble upon it. I love surprises.

Well some surprises. I don’t like the ones where people like to scare me. With that said let me say something else, I am literally the easiest person to scare it ridiculous. I can know you’re there, and if you go “ra” or “boo” and touch me I jump. If you loudly bang on a door once, I jump. I’m not sure if I really want to admit this to give people ideas. But you think by now I would be use to it. I blame you. I wish it wasn’t so easy to scare me. But the weirder thing is horror movies don’t really scare me, sure they gross me out but no scare factor. They are getting really predictable. In Paranormal Activity no scaryness. I was just chowing down on my popcorn. I’m sure if I saw the old school Halloween, Friday the Thirteenth, & Dawn of the Dead. I probably would get scared. I would talk at the characters.

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Ok it’s Saturday night I live in Vegas, and I am home getting excited about watching the Kids Choice Awards, my life sucks…in a way.  I’m not ashamed to admit it…sort of. But before you think “wow, she’s lame”, let me just say this, I am only watching it because a certain Monkey was actually apart of the telecast. And I have to say he’s worth it. Now why did I continue watching it after his bit was done? I have no clue. I really don’t, ok I lied I do. I wanted to see if “New Moon” was going to win for favorite movie, and it didn’t. Can you say “epic fail”? Alvin and the Chipmunks won favorite movie. But is it so hard to believe a partially animated movie won at a “Kid’s Choice Awards”? New Moon most likely would have if it was the Teen Choice Awards. But I just have one question, what is the big freaking deal with Justin Bieber? Seriously, he sings and looks like a twelve-year-old. Like I can see where the fanism comes from because when i was 12, I was totally in love with Justin Timberlake. But at least Justin T. can sing, and he doesn’t make you want to look for ear plugs because you eardrums are about to burst. That may be a little mean, but I am not impressed. I’m sorry. I don’t mean to offend anyone who may like him, but I don’t see it. Just my opinion. I know what my parents were talking about all those years ago…and here I thought parents just don’t understand.

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So this blog is an expansion of three days or more, I really don’t feel like stopping and doing the math. Even though I like math, I don’t want to find out. It’s now officially early Monday morning, and my work week is just beginning. Yay.

Is it Thursday yet? You know what Thursday is don’t you? Well besides April’s Fools Day. No, still don’t know. Ok then I shall tell you. Imagine Dragons are having a show that night. If you have no idea who I am talking about, well then shame on you. They are awesome, and that doesn’t even really describe them. They are way beyond awesome. They are usually compared to the Killers, who are one of my favorite bands, but iD is even better. Their first ep is up on itunes. It’s worth the Five bucks. Their seconds ep was just released. It’s also worth the five bucks.

www.myspace.com/imaginedragons

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Switching gears a little bit, more than slightly actually. Have you ever heard of Alex’s Lemonade Stand Foundation? It’s a heartbreaking foundation against childhood cancer. What makes it heartbreaking is not what its fighting, but how is was founded. Alex Scott, aged 8, started selling lemonade four years earlier to help her doctors find a cure to childhood cancer. During her first lemonade stand she raise over $2,000 dollars.  Her goal was to raise at least one million dollars, and she reached her goal during her last lemonade stand. ” if people all around the country hold lemonade stands and send in their money, I think I can do it.” You know what I was doing at age four? Playing with barbies. Alex Scott is my new inspiration. {For more information, please visit www.alexslemonade.org}

*This image belongs to the Scott family*

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I really don’t know what else to blog about. This entry has been kind of all over the place. I wonder where the word “blog” originated from? But my goal for each entry has been to be over 1,000 words. Hmm…have you ever change the font on a school paper to make it longer? Not the “extra-extra read all about it”, but like a paper for class. Say it had to be five pages long, but you were at 4 1/2, so you change it, and it made it five pages. I hated when teachers made it mandatory, that I had to use Times New Roman. That font is small. I like writing the word small. I know I’m a nerd. I am no longer a dork. Thanks to OMG Facts, I found out a different meaning for “dork”, and the meaning is just wrong in all sorts of ways.

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A part of me doesn’t want me to finish this, especially when I’m not in the greatest of moods. I really don’t know what’s wrong. My day hasn’t been the great…and for the reason being is unknown, and that’s unfair. It started out shitty.  So today, no matter how positive people were around me I only saw the negative. I hate being negative. I hate it with a passion.

I am really sick and tired of hearing “wow you’re up” or rooster noises when I do get up. I’m sorry I am not up at nine in the morning every single day. I’m sorry I can’t seem to fall asleep until the wee hours of the morning. I’m sorry if I get up past noon, so I can at least get a decent amount of hours of sleep. I’m sorry if I do go to sleep at a standard normal time, I wake up around two in the morning. You know what, I’m tired of being sorry. I’m tired of just being tired.

“Beautiful More So” by Spencer Bell

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ok, I have actually been writing down a list of what to blog about. Gold Star for me, woot! It’s a slow process. But anywho, it’s a short list but hey it’s a start. So the first topic is “weird dreams”, and I have been having some pretty bizarre dreams. Some of them I wish were reality instead of being hidden away somewhere in my subconscious. The dreams seem pretty real until something completely strange happens and it’s usually creepy. Like clowns creepy. And I hate clowns. Here is one reason that I find clowns absolutely terrifying: It’s suppose to be a “joke”  but here it is “A clown and a little boy were walking through the woods at night hand in hand, the boy looks up to the clown and says: ‘Man Mr. Clown these woods are scary…’ The clown then looks down at the boy and says: ‘You think you’re scared? I have to walk out of these woods alone.’” I hate clowns. I blame you, Stephen King and Ronald McDonald. Back to weird dreams…one dream I had about two weeks ago, I think, it seemed like it should have been a movie or something. I only remember bits and pieces of it. I should have written it down. It was like it was straight out of a fantasy novel I like. That either means I’m onto the next pop culture phenomenon or I read too much. But there is no such thing as too much reading…unless you’re addicted to your e-reader that you have to sit on your hands to keep from reading. I’m seriously worried. Is there such a thing as a e-readers anonymous?  

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Isn’t it kind of funny how just five years ago having a MySpace page was the trendyest thing to be involved in, well as far as social networking? Now Facebook is the account to have. At first I didn’t care for Facebook , but now I love it more than MySpace. I am addicted to Facebooking. I am seriously on it every single day. It’s pretty sad, actually. But if it makes me sound less like a geek I don’t play games well with the exception of bejeweled. Like I don’t have a farm, cafe, or aquarium.  I still do MySpace, but not as nearly as I used to. I don’t update it every single day, and I haven’t abandoned it completely. I remember peeps at my high school were obsessed with MySpace. “You don’t have a MySpace?” You think I punched a baby or something. *Please don’t ever punch a baby that’s worse than mean* I do Twitter. I mostly Twitter with my Monkeys Junkies though. Probably if 100 Monkeys never got an account I would have most likely deleted it. BUT I am very happy that I didn’t.  I love the fact that 99.5% of my twittering revolves around the 100 Monkeys universe. My twitter goal is to have @gublernation, who isn’t a monkey, respond or retweet one of my tweets to him. That would totally be awesometastic. I hope that doesn’t make me seem stalkerish. Do they have restraining orders on twitter? Besides the block button.  

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I just got distracted by the 90s. So many memories of that decade. I can’t believe that era ended eleven years ago. It only seems like it was yesterday I was playing with the neighbor kids with games such as “Freeze Tag”, “TV Tag”, “Power Rangers” (oh yeah I always demanded to be the Pink Ranger)  

My idol, oh yeah I wanted to be her

I miss my childhood. Nothing horrible ever seem to happen there.  

Under the Umbrella Tree

I totally forgot about this show. I even forget what channel it was on. I don’t even remember the name, but it was an awesome show.  

My two favorite shows from when I was little (i.e. 5) were The Lil’ Bits  

The Lil' Bits

and Eureeka’s Castle  

What the Castle says

Best shows ever, well according to my five-year old shelf. I trust her judgement entirely. These two shows were ALWAYS on when I got home from school. Thank goodness for am Kindergarten. I miss the days of my Little Mermaid Lunch pale, oh yeah it was plastic. The best. I cannot find a picture of that lunch box, but I found a picture of the thermos. Do lunch boxes even come with thermoses anymore?  

Happyness came out of this thermos

The best bologna sandwich in the world came out of that freaking lunch box. I miss the days where it was cool to take your lunch to school.  

Remember these:  

Miss Susie had a steamboat
the steamboat had a bell
Miss Susie went to Heaven
the steamboat went to
hello operator
please give me number nine
and if you disconnect me,
I’ll kick you from
Behind the refrigerator
there was a piece of glass
Miss Susie sat upon it and broke her little
ask me no more questions
tell me no more lies
the boys are in the girls’ room
pulling down their flies
Miss Susie and her boyfriend
are kissing in the
D-A-R-K
D-A-R-K
D-A-R-K
[fast] DARK, DARK, DARK
dark is like a movie
a movie’s like a show
a show is like a TV screen
and that is all I know
I know I know my mother
I know I know my pa
I know I know my sister
with the alligator bra!  

The Bubble Gum Game:  

Bubble gum, Bubble gum, in a dish. How many pieces do you wish?  

The Bubble Gum Game brings back memories of being on the playground. Days where you couldn’t wait for recess. But the best days were the rainy days where you got to spend recess indoors playing games such as “Heads Up Seven Up”, “Four Corners”, or “Hot Potato”. I miss the days of elementary school. The best times inside the classroom was when you got to clean out your desk or got to change seats. Wow the little things that made our days right? Well at least my day, I don’t know if people actually got excited as i did when I got to change seats or clean out my desk. Free time in school, best time one word, coloring. 

Best Invention Ever!!

Best crayon: Mac n’ cheese 

O-M-G who remembers these: 

Do they still make these? I should know that, right? I should look on the juice aisle. But I don’t think they do.  

Told you I got distracted by the 90s. I couldn’t help it, I wanted to take a stroll down memory lane. I liked the simple childhood. 

~ 

Just saw a commercial for the Disney classic “Alice in Wonderland”, the cartoon. It’s the un-anniversary edition, I find that hysterical. Normally they release the 35th, 40th, or 20th anniversary edition. I would like to go shopping inside the Disney vault. Do they actually let the public inside there? Or is it like a top-secret place with like the Disney secret service guarding it? hmm…I wonder where it’s located.

Song of the Day:

To say with the “theme” of the 90s and my childhood, I am picking a song from a group I was well I guess you could use the word “obsessed” to decribe. But April 16, 1999 was the best night ever when I got to see these guys in-concert. Don’t judge me, I was eleven.

‘N SYNC “Tearin’ Up My Heart”

—-> I am random get use to it <—–

It doesn’t have to make sense to you, just to me. I hate explaining my randomness, it takes the hilarity out of it. And I can be really random, it’s fun being random. I need a new word for random.This is the only time I am going to explain my randomness, in the future I may refer you back to this, or you just have to think to yourself “wow she’s silly”. *

1. ” <insert quote>” are called quotes. It usually means I am quoting something.

2. The majority of the time I am quoting a song of some sort, and I don’t put that into quotation marks. It may or may not have a connection to how I am feeling at that present moment…or I just really like the song. You never know.

3. I rant, ramble, and repeat.

4. I make up words, or I combine words “bennifer” style. And I disliked “bennifer” immensely . Well Ben and J. Lo I didn’t care for, but Ben & Jen G <3. Anywho, Awesometastic, fantastical,fantabulous, and such are a few examples. I use improper English on these sites such as these. If it’s not a word, I just made it a word cause I am cool like that. More like a “dork” as a certain member of my immediate family who lives across the hall from me  and is two years older than would put it.  Others try to correct me, but that doesn’t work. Unless you are an English teacher grading one of my papers, you get my own language. You should consider yourself lucky.

5. I am also really sarcastic, but my sarcasm comes off a little bitchy sometimes. But I am not a bitch at all. Unless I really dislike you, you receive the bitchy side of me, and she rarely comes out. And my sarcasm doesn’t usually come off well in text because you don’t get my facial expression.And in person it obvious because I can’t keep a straight face, most of the time. But then I usually get “Are you serious?”. So in text I usually add an <—-that means I am kidding.

6. <—-these are my happy faces, I use them a lot. This is my really happy face because it’s suppose to be with teeth. :-p <—this one can have several different meaning it can mean “whatever” or “neener neener neener” <—-sad face, something isn’t going right

7. “grr” something is ticking me off or something along those lines, I am not actually growling because that would be weird.

8. “haha” is my “lol”

9. “hehe” is my laughter

10. <3 are my hearts, that means I love it.

By the way, this whole guideline thing is suppose to be fun, and not to offend anyone in any way because then I would be

* I may add to this in the future.

I’ve been thinking a lot about school. I wish I was going. But wishing one thing and actually following through with an ambition is another. I was thinking about in the Fall 2010 of giving it another try. I think I can make it work, I’ve done it before. It’s takes a lot of energy. I still need to talk about it with my parents…they don’t even know that I have been thinking about it. So I probably shouldn’t spill my thoughts and opinions about it to the digital world until they are in the know.

 Last night, or the night before (when this gets pubished) I watch 500 Days of Summer I absolutely loved it. I don’t want to give too much away because I think you need to see it for yourself. If you “love” love you will fall in love with this movie. Fyi: I think that is the most I have ever used the word ”love” in one sentence. Anywho back to falling in love with love, this movie is more honest about it. It’s not the  traditional romantic comedy, it’s better. It’s more honest about love and relationships. It’s more like Sex and the City, but it just doesn’t include New York, Sarah Jessica Parker, 400$ + shoes, and all the wild crazy sex scenarios. When I first saw the previews (yay for previews) I though this movie was set in New York, but it was actually set in Los Angeles. I was blown away by all the beautiful architecture that was showcase throughout the film. It shows a different side to L.A., the one we aren’t use to seeing in television shows and in cinematic adventures. There is a beautiful city underneath all that smog.

See this!!

 ”Dreaming of a could be and if I end up happy”

I have seem to hit “writer’s block” nay for writer’s block. I really hate when that happens…I think I have mentioned that before, and I hate repeating myself. I’m starting to sound like my father who, apparently,  loves repeating himself. One day he told the same story like twenty times (no joke) until somebody actually paid attention to him. And he thought the story was hilarious, and it really wasn’t. Especially after hearing it for the umpteenth time.

I am still in writer’s block mode, and I am trying very hard to escape it. You know now whenever I hear the word “escape” I think of Dory from Finding Nemo when she pronounces it escapay. Dory you are hilarious with all your one liners. “I wish I could speak whale” “Cooooommmmmmmeeeee baaaaccck” (sorry I couldn’t resist. I guess I could have layed off the m’s a little bit) Yeah talking about Dory isn’t curing me of my writer’s block.

and I love this:

and this:

I should really be doing something…like getting organized. I keep talking about how I need to get organize, but I never seem to follow through. Damn procrastination. Can’t you go away and give me my motivation back? I just want to know where motivation went is all, because it has been gone for a really long time. If you find it, can you please send it back to me?

So anywho, I need to find a cute outfit for this coming weekend. Whoa girly moment. I’m excited because I actually get to do my hair, whoa another girly moment. I’m sorry for sounding so girly, but it just on my never-ending agenda right now. I don’t know what I want to wear…hmm. And my hair is going to look really cute, I just hope it cooperates. It never does when I want it to. It always look good the following day. Why? I have no idea.

Lets just hope with our *finger’s crossed* that it doesn’t turn out like this

———->

It kind of reminds me of the Jan Brady wig from the Brady Bunch movie. Do y’all know what I am talking about? Well it was hilarious. I keep saying “y’all” a lot. I don’t even know why. I’m not a southern girl. Well I am a SOUTHERN california girl by heart. It’s in my blood, on my mother’s side. I moved from there about five years ago to “sin city” woot! It took me a LONG time to start calling Las Vegas ”home”. I seriously just started. Sure I would love to move back, but then I think of all the people I would leave behind here, and I have met some pretty awesometastic folks here. It’s hilarious though when you tell people you live in Vegas, usually their reaction is “really? what hotel?”. I would like to say these are usually the partyers that ask me that. They just can’t believe there is life beyond the strip. But just for kicks, I would say “oh the Bellagio” hehe I love that joke. I think I have said that before. And that means I have repeated myself again. I hate repeating myself.

“your scared ashamed of what you feel”

I feel that I should write more, but I don’t know what to say. Oh I know…

Book Recommendation:

Actually it’s more like a “series” recommendation. It’s the Mortal Instruments: City of Bones (#1) City of Ashes (#2) City of Glass (#3) It’s a really good interesting series. A couple of things bothered me about it. Some of the expressions the author Cassandra Clare would use to express a reaction was really overused. And the main love story was kind of bizarre and a little disturbing. But you wanted them to be together because they fit so well. I know that sounds really strange, but if you read the novels you would understand. You didn’t want to be true for what was said at the end of the first novel. 

Read these!!

I fell into this fascinating world, hidden among the mundane world.

Song of the Day

“Faithfully” by Journey

“That’s All Folks”

Thanks for reading,

<3 J

I was so excited about this show ever since I saw it posted on www.100monkeysmusic.com. I did have a pretty good time, even with all the chaos that happened that night. Even with the girls who were standing next to me on my left, who didn’t know how to control their liquor consumption and their attitude towards me. But the ladies and the gentleman next to my sister were extremely nice  Thank You!!  And why is it when ever something negative happens, you always remember those moments vividly? But anyway, my date for the evening was once again my sister, who was very much excited to attend this time around. {She even sang along} She became even more ecstatic when she found out Imagine Dragons were going to open the show again. We arrived at the venue, and were greeted by the staff. They told us the show was upstairs. (sidenote: I was very delighted the show was indoors this time around no freezing!! yay!!)  It was a nice venue, a great place to have a show…then as the night progress my opinion change. We found a table to the right of the stage, and sat down through the first opening act, The Rooks. They reminded of a British invasion band from what I remember, not The Beatles. Their set went off without a hitch. To be honest I really couldn’t get into them.

My sister did buy us each a drink, our only drinks of the night. Opinion One: the cocktail guys never asked if we were ok with anything. Mind you we still had some beverage in our cups, but they still could have asked. It’s called customer service right? So The Rooks finished their set, and Imagine Dragons began to set up their equipment with major technical difficulties. They never fully got their sound mics amps thingys up and working properly. But they still put on an awesome show. Finally, 100 Monkeys came out and began to set up their instruments then told the crowd, “be back in 5.”  Marty, the bananager, took the stage to introduce the guys.

Marty, the bananager

I cannot forge the memory of which song they opened with, but they did play songs they didn’t play at the Beauty Bar show. They played ”Smoke”, “Invisible Monster” {Now that I have had actually heard it in person I love it, you know  instead of youtubing it…loved it}, and another song I’m sorry I can’t think, but I know they didn’t play it at the last show. I do apologize for my memory the show was several weeks ago. But I do remember them playing “Orson Brawl”, “Arizona”, “Ugly Girl”, “Reaper”, “Kold Pixs” (They need to record that song, it’s too awesomeness not to), “Prayer”, “Wings on Fire”, and “Keep Awake”. And of course “The Monkey Song” or as Ben G introduced it, “It’s time for the motherfucking Monkey Song”. It’s not a Monkey show without the “motherfucking Monkey Song”. The improv song of the evening was “Lipstick on my Collar” which was the better choice out of “Aviation” (really? They already have a song about an airplane)  and another choice. J.rad asked us audience members for three choices. During the improv it is where the mic stand and the actual mic broke. I personally, believe it didn’t happen on purpose. You can judge for yourself.

**This video is mine, all videos that are posted with this blog will be mine**   

They unintentionally ended the show with “Invisible Monsters”, and told us they will be back shortly. But as most of you know they weren’t “allowed” to finish their set. No encore, no “Thank You” song. Opinion Two: Which I am sorry to say,  is complete and total bullshit from a fan point of view. They were the headlining band of the evening, they should have been able to complete their set. I know on some websites it was mentioned that some venues have a curfew, but this is Vegas people, there is no curfew. Las Vegas is the ”city that never sleeps” this side of the Mississippi. Most clubs here do not close until 4am, and it wasn’t even 2am. I am not sure of the Hard Rock’s hours for shows and such. 

I know the news on the “no encore” and the treatment of the guys exploded on the internet and fans quickly took action against the Hard Rock Cafe, but I am still waiting to hear 100 Monkeys side of what happened behind the scenes. So I am not going to go into details about one of the techs calling the guys “asshole” because A) even though I was there I didn’t hear the name calling or see the beer get spilt. But I know there is proof. B) It would be pointless of me going into details of something I honestly didn’t know about until the following morning. Opinion three: it was extremely unprofessional of the Hard Rock personnel for the name calling and spilling Mr. Rathbone’s beer on a piece of Monkeys equipment. Are they seriously in elementary school? They should have kept their opinions to themselves. Rule of thumb. 

I love 100 Monkeys for staying professional about the events that unfolded   that evening. Throughout the show it did seem to me they were irritated about the technical difficulties that continued from Imagine Dragons set to theirs. It still baffles me that one of the reasons given why they weren’t allowed to do an encore because they started their set late. It wasn’t in their control, Hard Rock. They were constantly telling the tech guys “more sound in this mic”, ”these mics are switch”.  Thank you guys for still putting on an awesome show. We’re sorry that you were unable to finish your set. Vegas <3′s you.

Setting up

A Monkey's Uncle

J.rad

J.action & Ben G

J.action on the keys <3

<3

hehe

See he does smile

I <3 how he gets into the music

Ugly Girl:

Orson Brawl:

Keep Awake:

**I do apologize for my monotone singing…I thought I was singing low enough to where the mic on my camera wouldn’t record me. It’s really low, but you can still kind of hears it. And I would like to apologize for the sidewayness…I’m too short. The wonderfully nice girly who was in front of me apologized later on youtube, she wasn’t aware I was recording some of the show. She told me I could have told her to move. But I don’t like to bother other folks at shows, and especially if they are having a good time. It just would have seem rude to me to ask someone else to move so I could have a better view.**

 Thanks for reading,

<3 J

I love Dr. Reid…I love t.v. geniuses. Sheldon Cooper hehe he’s my favorite “BAZINGA”…

Penny <3 Sheldon…she just doesn’t know it yet.

I also love Buffy the Vampire Slayer. It was such a clever show. I would probably die of excitement if they made that into a movie. I did hear some news that the people who own the rights to the show or Buffy or whatever are going to make a movie but without Mr. Whedon. Umm I’m sorry, but he is the mind behind Buffy. It would be like having Batman without Bruce Wayne. He actually left the making of the original movie over creative difference, and guess what it sucked! So I ask you copyright owners, why in the world would you dare make the same mistake twice?

This is totally off subject, but I just realize I can upload audio…yay. This can get very dangerous you have been warned! Let’s try a test run to see if it works…ready. I must pick a track…Nevermind, you have to pay for that shit. Guess I’m stuck with youtube. Thanks for bursting my bubble space upgrader :(  anywho…what was I talking about…oh yeah television.

So I know it sounds like I watch a lot of television, but I really don’t. Mind you I do have shows that I watch, but other than that it’s mostly on for noise. I would rather watch a movie. I just watch Zombieland but before I get to that I have to talk about my absolute favorite show..

Friends <3 I seriously know what episode it is just by the title. I have all ten season on DVD and have my very one marathons. I haven’t had one in a long while, I swear. I wish I had hair like Rachel, loved to clean like Monica, make up songs like Phoebe, hilarious like Chandler, spelled baby like Joey, and loved Dinosaurs like Ross. This is the part where in <insert> a photo or video, but I am having difficulties deciding which one…I may have to show them all because I am laugh hysterically at each one…god I love that show!

ok I laughed hysterically at this one the most…i won’t put them all on here. I don’t want “seriously Jessica? really? we get it you love Friends“

Zombieland

Was it gory? Yes it was a movie involving zombies, they aren’t beautiful creatures. So expect bloodyness gore. Was it scary? Nope pure comedy, although I did jump at one part, but in my defense it had that loud knocking noise. you know the “he’s right behind you” and then they turn around noise. But that’s just me…I jump at loud noises. And it had a scary clown. I am scared of clowns. This one looked like it was from my nightmare. I hate clowns. Thank you Stephen King. Was it funny? Hehe it surely was. It had the humor of Michael Cera, whose not in the movie. If you like that kind of humor. If you like to ,you know ,laugh. Woody Harrison, who was in the movie, was hysterical. What his character would do for a Twinkie. The movie also stars Jesse Eisenberg, Emma Stone, and Abigail Breslin.

It was “Dawn of the Dead” meets <insert hilarious comedy of your choice>

Memorable quotes {thank you imdb.com}

Columbus: The first rule of Zombieland: Cardio. When the zombie outbreak first hit, the first to go, for obvious reasons… were the fatties.

Columbus: [after his neighbor changes into a zombie] You see? You just can’t trust anyone. The first girl I let into my life and she tries to eat me.

Columbus: Someone’s ear is in danger of having hair brushed over it…

Tallahassee: [referring to Wichita and Little Rock, who previously hijacked them] They’re in the back, aren’t they?
Little Rock: [pops up holding shotgun] Just me.
Columbus: I’m really sorry. She was a good crouching tiger…
Tallahassee: You got taken hostage by a 12 year old?
Columbus: Well, girls mature faster than boys. She’s way ahead of where I was at that age.
Little Rock: Twelve’s the new twenty. Gun please.
Tallahassee: Like you would ever use that thing
[Little Rock shoots in the air]
Tallahassee: Don’t kill me with my own gun.

Little Rock: [as Bill Murray is dying] Do you have any regrets?
Bill Murray: Garfield maybe

Little Rock: Who’s Bill Murray?
Tallahassee: …I’ve never hit a kid before… I mean, that’s like asking who Gandhi is.
Little Rock: Who’s Gandhi?

Tallahassee: [discovers Hostess truck filled with Sno-Balls] Sno-Balls? Sno-Balls? Where the fuck are the God damn Twinkies?
Columbus: I love Sno-Balls.
Tallahassee: I HATE coconut. Not the flavor, but the consistency

**but you should watch the movie. If you have a strong stomach…unlike my sister. She doesn’t like gory/scary movies. I didn’t care for “Texas Chainsaw Massacre” remake, I’ve never seen the original. But that movie stuck with me a couple days afterwards. **shivers**

Seriously it’s 1:35 am…crap! Where did the time go? I still haven’t put my clothes in the washer. hehe…oops! I did it again.

Song of the Day

“Destination” by Imagine Dragons. Totally awesome band!! They’re from Las Vegas, NV and their sound reminds me of The Killers. But these guys are going places.

**Btw…this video my sister took

alright this is me signing off

thanks for reading

<3, J