This was the hardest list I have ever had to make. I didn’t “have” to make it, but I wanted to. So this is the hardest list I have ever wanted to make. It started as “My top 10 favorite songs” then it became top 20, now look at the paper I am at 38 and that’s just a strange number to stop at. The weirdest thing is there are no repeats from any artist. But out of the 38, I will name 10. This is where it gets hard.
Number 1. “Heaven” by Bryan Adams
Number 2. “Irvine” by Kelly Clarkson
Number 3. “Reaper” by 100 Monkeys
Number 4. “Seven Nation Army” by The White Striped
Number 5. “Creep” by Radiohead
Number 6. “Cryin” by Aerosmith
Number 7. “Polly” by Nirvana
Number 8. “Hotel California” by Eagles
Number 9. “Emma” by Imagine Dragons
Number 10. “Over the Rainbow” by Judy Garland
If you were just curious who else was included on this list here you go, in no particular order:
“Sweet Child O’ Mine” by Guns N’ Roses
“Baba O’ Riley” (Teenage Wasteland) by The Who
“Mary Jane’s Last Dance” by Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers
“Wheel in the Sky” by Journey
“Bohemian Rhapsody” by Queen
“Criminal” by Fiona Apple
“Everytime” by Britney Spears
“Man on the Moon” by R.E.M.
“Wild Horses” by The Sundays (Rolling Stones cover)
“A Song to Sing” by Hanson
“Beautiful, More So” by Spencer Bell
“The Current State of Our Future” by Chasing Kings
“Time is Running Out” by Muse
“Every Me Every You” by Placebo
“Fearful” by The Stevedores
“Bullet With Butterfly Wings” by Smashing Pumpkins
“The Man Comes Around” by Johnny Cash
“Darling You’re Mean” by The Duke Spirit
“Banana Pancakes” by Jack Johnson
“The Gift” by Seether
“Sex and Candy” by Marcy Playground
“Money” by Pink Floyd
“Everything” by Lifehouse
“You Shook Me All Night Long” AC/DC
“Breath” by Faith Hill
“California Waiting’” by Kings of Leon
“Jump” by Van Halen
“Sexyback” by Justin Timberlake
There you have it, some of my favorites and it’s not even all of them.
Here are some more that just knocked into my brain:
“Living in Twilight” by The Weepies
“Only Hope” by Switchfoot (I love Mandy Moore’s version too)
“I Will Follow You Into the Dark” by Deathcab for Cutie
“Under the Anchor” by Links
“1985″ by Crash Kings
“Time of the Season” by Ben Taylor Band
“Bittersweet Symphony” by The Verve
“Your Touch” by The Black Keys
“Waltz Across Texas” by Ernest Tubb
“Bad Romance” by Lady Gaga
“Billie Jean” by Michael Jackson
“What A Wonderful World” by Louis Armstrong
“Crimson and Clover” by Tommy James and the Shondells (and Joan Jett)
ok that’s enough for now, I think you get the idea.
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The song “Irvine” by Ms. Clarkson is something personal to me because I totally relate to the song. I am not a very religious person. I wish I did have a closer relationship with God. But I do believe in him as he does make miracles happen.
Can you feel how cold I am?
Do you cry as I do?
Are you lonely up there all by yourself?
Like I have felt all my life
The only one to save mine
This next verse:
How are you so strong?
What’s it like to feel so free?
Your heart is really something
Your love, a complete mystery to me
I had a very hard time in high school. Out side of school work and “preparing” for your future, your friends are everything. The events surrounding my freshman year of what set me on the path of loneliness and a bit of depression that changed me. I held everything in, and never really talking about it. Well at least with anyone professional. I still don’t know the reasoning of why, and that will ALWAYS bother me. I just want to let that particular person know this:
Do you know how long it took me to trust people again? I lost trust in people because of you. Because of you I hold a resentment. Because of you, I hated the rest of my freshman year. Because of you I lost friends who I loved and knew more than half my life. (They’re back in my life again and I am very thankful for that) This is what you wrote in my yearbook the year we graduated:
“Jessica hey we’ve been through some hard times but were (something ineligible) to be friends again in the end. Thanks and good luck”
But did we really? No. It’s been eight years, eight, and the reason being is still bothering because the suppose “reason” you told me why was a complete and total lie, and you know it. It’s fine that you didn’t “want” to be friends with me anymore, but I just wish you told me the truth. I don’t consider you an enemy. I can’t. I can’t even hate you. I hate what you did.
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And that same feeling I had for a year and a half came back toward my senior year, but for different reasons. And I talked about it with one of the two friends. I just don’t get to see/talk to her as much as I would like to.
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“I’d rather have a few close friends than….” and I do. It’s weird, that one of them I haven’t physically met yet, but she’s one of my closest friends. In the past few months I have met some incredibly amazing people, and I just want to know one thing, where have you been my whole life? I really do love you guys, and I want to thank you for coming into my life. You bring out the best of me, and I am starting to see my old self again. I missed her. And I am starting to cry, but it’s ok sometimes you need a good cry.
Actually since I left California, I met people who took me under their wings, and they made me smile. The way I used to. And I am very thankful for that.
True friends are not opportunists. They don’t help, because they have something to gain out of it. True friendship is marked by selflessness. Best friends support even each other, even if the whole world opposes them. It is not easy getting true friends for the lifetime. If you have even one true friend, consider yourself blessed. Remember, all best friends are friends, but not all friends can be best friends. In this world of cynics and back stabbers, there are still some people who are worth being friends with. They have to be recognized and respected for being best friends, for the lifetime.
This blog went in a complete and total different direction then I meant to. But I think I need to talk about that part of my life just to get out there. Maybe that’s why I am so awkward, or maybe it’s not.
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I think I need to talk about something completely random. But what?
Last night I saw the amazingly incredible Imagine Dragons. They opened for Sponge and Marcy Playground. The “local” band was the better out of the three. And let me just say this, the Hard Rock Cafe sound is still horrible. The sound guys, and including the name caller, don’t know how to do their job. Like the sound for MP was so loud that I got a migraine. It’s like “I am standing right here, you don’t have yell”. And I still haven’t heard “Sex and Candy” because we left early. I’ll just YouTube it. Maybe. Thank you Imagine Dragons for putting on an incredible show.
Song of the Blog
“Irvine” by Kelly Clarkson
Thank you for reading,
<3 J
